My soul has been fully restored by God....but the rest of me is still catching up. One day it will all align, but for now I live in this tension. The deepest part of me has been set free, while the other parts are still finding their way out...I keep reminding them that we are no longer captive, but they don't always listen.
my eyes wander. my mind questions. my personality clashes. my experience lacks.
my words offend. my dreams disturb. my compassion deflates. my hope shrinks.
my strength fails. my heart aches. my body struggles. my spirit sinks.
And so it goes.....
But my deep, hidden, mysterious essence is secure....assured....saved. And it calls to the rest of my being to live up to what I have already attained:
grace. forgiveness. restoration. reconciliation. acceptance. purpose. peace.
It's only in light of these ultimate categories that I continue moving forward. Otherwise, what's the point? I try and try and try but fail and fail and fail.
What really matters at the end of the day (and life) is the eternal nature of my soul, and the way of Life & Truth it carves out for others.
May I live graciously in the tension of who I am and who I am becoming forever.
